My Dearest Love

Its 1:00am in the morning, I lay here on my bed
staring at the moon and the stars through my bay window.
The moon shining over me,

I walked toward the glass door, opened it and went out the balcony.
I took a deep breath as I stared at the moon shining over the water
hearing the waves crashing upon the rocks.
Such a beautiful night so clear and bright.

A single tear rolls down my face. As I sigh.
I thought of thee, my eternal love.
As my heart sank, I closed my eyes.
As the breezed blew my long black hair
and my white satin night gown,

I felt this sensation that he's behind me.
Feeling his strong firm arms around my waste.
Hugging me so tight, as he doesn't want me to lose hope.
I whispered in a soft voice saying,
"Im here my love, still waiting for you."

This love was a man I never seen before but in my dreams.
Its a love of burning desire an eternal flame that I have for him.
I opened my eyes and I knew he wasn't there.
The only time I hear him or see him is when I close my
eyes.

I went back into my room, leaving the glass door open
so the ocean breeze would come in.

I took a single red rose from the bedside table,
as I picked up the rose, I pricked my finger.
I dropped the rose immediately,

The rose fell on the floor. As I squeezed my finger
a single drop of blood fell from my finger
on to the peddle of the red rose.
I ran to the bathroom to wash the blood from my finger
and laid back down to my bed.

I can feel the breeze from outside as I laid in bed
the moon and the stars still shining upon me.

 As I closed my eyes I whispered in a soft voice,
"Please Dear Lord let me find thee my eternal love,"
and I drifted off to sleep.

As I slept a shooting star fell from the sky
and through my glass door and hit the single red rose
that laid on the floor by my bed.

The Red Rose grew brighter. A silhouette of a man was
by my bed and he picked up the single rose that had dropped.
He took the rose and smelled it and gave it a kiss.
and whispered in a soft voice,
"Im here my love, and soon we will be one."
And lend down to me and gave me a single kiss on my
forehead.

I felt this warm sensation again and I awoke.
I looked around me and saw the curtain on the glass
door swinging from the breeze. A chill went all over
my body as if someone was there with me.

I stood up and went towards the glass door,
I could see the moon still shining down on the water.
The breeze blowing my hair back away from my face and
closing my eyes.
I heard that soft whisper again. saying "my love."
I smiled and closed the glass the door.

As I walk toward my bed I remembered about the rose
that I had dropped.
I looked down and did not see it. I shook my head
and not thought anything of it.
And laid back down and drifted off to sleep.

I dreamt of thee.
He was beside me just starring at me, while I slept.
I felt his warm smile, and his loving touch.
He gave me a single kiss, and I awoke.

As I opened my eyes he was there, next to me.
He looked at me and smiled.
And said "My Love I am Thee."

I smiled back at him, and with a single Kiss
I said to him "I know."
He reached up to my face and brushed my face,
it felt like that ocean breeze.

Closing my eyes and smiling.
A chill ran down my body, as I opened my eyes again.
I saw the single rose that I had dropped.
He gave the rose a kiss and gave it to me.
As he gave me the rose, He said "My Love
this rose is a symbol of our love for each other.
And it will live forever as our eternal love burns.
Iam your eternity as you are mine.
Always keep this by your bed and each night I will be
here next to you.
I will watch over you and keep you safe.
When you feel that ocean breeze it is me blowing you a kiss
and when you feel that bright sun upon your skin
It is me holding you.
When you feel that sadness, close your eyes.
And I will be there smiling at you.
Just open your Heart My Love and Soon we will be as ONE.

I took the Rose and gave it a kiss and said to Thee.
"My Darling my Heart is open and has been waiting for
you. I don't understand, you are here with me."

Tears ran down my face as I said to him "I Love You."
He wiped my tears with his firm hand and said to me
"My Love, you will soon understand. We can't be One
until you open up your Heart."

I closed my eyes for I did not understand
what he meant.

I said to him," No No, this can't be
Your here next to me, Please don't leave me again."

As I jumped up, I felt the tears rolling down my face.
I turned and looked at the mirror,  I could see myself,
I had tears in my eyes
and in the back ground I could see the curtains blowing
from the Ocean breeze.
I looked around and called out for thee.
But he wasn't there. I lowered my head in sadness.

I could see right next to me was the rose that I had
dropped.

I picked up the rose to smell it,I noticed the rose
had no thorns.
I smiled at it and said "My Love I understand now."

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The lesson I found was, I couldn't truly love again
until I shed that fear of hurt @--}---